\u00a0 <\/p>\n
Hayat hayal <\/p>\n
\u00d6m\u00fcr k\u0131saym\u0131\u015f. <\/p>\n
Beden; ruh ku\u015fuma <\/p>\n
Bir kafes… <\/p>\n
\u0130lkbahar, yaz ge\u00e7ici <\/p>\n
Gidi\u015f, sonbahara, k\u0131\u015faym\u0131\u015f… <\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn yar\u0131n derken <\/p>\n
Oyalad\u0131 kuruntular\u0131m, tutkular\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kendime gelemedim <\/p>\n
Sinsi bir nefes <\/p>\n
F\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yordu kula\u011f\u0131ma: <\/p>\n
"Daha gen\u00e7sin, hen\u00fcz erken…" <\/p>\n
Dedi; i\u015fime geldi inan\u0131verdim. <\/p>\n
G\u00f6n\u00fcl ekran\u0131ndaki paslar birikti, silemedim <\/p>\n
Eyvah, bilemedim dostlar, <\/p>\n
Bilemedim… <\/p>\n
\u00a0 <\/p>\n
\u015e\u00f6hret oldum, \u015f\u0131mard\u0131m <\/p>\n
Servet buldum, \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Ah bilseniz, <\/p>\n
Gaflet ile, ne f\u0131rsatlar ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m. <\/p>\n
\u015eimdi pi\u015fmanl\u0131k ate\u015fi <\/p>\n
Cay\u0131r cay\u0131r yakar i\u00e7imi. <\/p>\n
Keyfim i\u00e7in <\/p>\n
Ba\u015fkalar\u0131na zahmet ettim <\/p>\n
Zulmettim. <\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Ve bu yapt\u0131klar\u0131m <\/p>\n
Yan\u0131ma kar kal\u0131r zannettim. <\/p>\n
Rabbimi unuttum, haddimi a\u015ft\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Nefsin d\u00fcrt\u00fclerine direnemedim <\/p>\n
Eyvah canlar, <\/p>\n
Bilemedim, bilemedim… <\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Okudum, ama <\/p>\n
\u00d6\u011frenemedim… <\/p>\n
Duydum, ama <\/p>\n
Dinleyip sindiremedim. <\/p>\n
Bakt\u0131m, ama g\u00f6remedim. <\/p>\n
Dokudum, ama <\/p>\n
Ba\u015fkalar\u0131 bezendi <\/p>\n
Ben giyemedim. <\/p>\n
Velhas\u0131l; <\/p>\n
Malumat vard\u0131 <\/p>\n
Ama, mamulat olmad\u0131. <\/p>\n
Anlayaca\u011f\u0131z; <\/p>\n
E\u011fitim ve \u00f6\u011fretim \u00e7oktu <\/p>\n
Ama \u00fcretim yoktu. <\/p>\n
Ve amelsiz ilim <\/p>\n
Bir i\u015fe yaramad\u0131. <\/p>\n
Hep d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 istedim <\/p>\n
R\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131 dilemedim. <\/p>\n
Bilemedim eyvah, <\/p>\n
Bilemedim… <\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnya; iki kap\u0131l\u0131 bir hanm\u0131\u015f. <\/p>\n
Ve hayat; <\/p>\n
Sadece bir imtihanm\u0131\u015f… <\/p>\n
\u00c7ok ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Yani bo\u015funa <\/p>\n
Ve ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f dola\u015ft\u0131k <\/p>\n
G\u00fcnahlara bula\u015ft\u0131k <\/p>\n
Biz daha neler beklerken <\/p>\n
Birden, son dura\u011fa yakla\u015ft\u0131k. <\/p>\n
Yaz\u0131k, bir \u00f6m\u00fcr oyaland\u0131m <\/p>\n
Aldand\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Ne \u00fcmitler, ne emeller beslerken <\/p>\n
Ecelle kucakla\u015ft\u0131k. <\/p>\n
Hep bo\u015f verdim, erteledim <\/p>\n
\u0130nce dokuyup, s\u0131k eleyemedim. <\/p>\n
Eyvah dostlar <\/p>\n
Bilemedim, bilemedim. <\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Hakikat u\u011frunda <\/p>\n
Mum gibi <\/p>\n
Erimem laz\u0131md\u0131, <\/p>\n
Eri\u015febilmem i\u00e7in.. <\/p>\n
Tohum gibi <\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00fcr\u00fcmem laz\u0131md\u0131 <\/p>\n
Solmamak \u00fczere <\/p>\n
Filizlenmem i\u00e7in.. <\/p>\n
Oysa ben <\/p>\n
Kabu\u011fuma k\u0131yamad\u0131m, <\/p>\n
\u00d6z\u00fcmden oldum. <\/p>\n
G\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0131skand\u0131m, <\/p>\n
Ama g\u00f6z\u00fcmden oldum. <\/p>\n
Maskeyle, makyajla oyalan\u0131rken <\/p>\n
Y\u00fcz\u00fcmden oldum. <\/p>\n
Sonunda; <\/p>\n
Na\u015f\u0131m tene\u015fir tahtas\u0131na <\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m mezar ta\u015f\u0131na <\/p>\n
De\u011fince uyand\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Oysa, bu r\u00fcya <\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 bitmeyecek sand\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Ne \u00e7are\u00a0 <\/p>\n
Cihatla pi\u015fip <\/p>\n
Sebatla bilenemedim. <\/p>\n
Eyvah canlar <\/p>\n
Bilemedim, bilemedim. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0 <\/p>\n
Hayat hayal <\/p>\n
\u00d6m\u00fcr k\u0131saym\u0131\u015f. <\/p>\n
Beden; ruh ku\u015fuma <\/p>\n
Bir kafes… <\/p>\n
\u0130lkbahar, yaz ge\u00e7ici <\/p>\n
Gidi\u015f, sonbahara, k\u0131\u015faym\u0131\u015f… <\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn yar\u0131n derken <\/p>\n
Oyalad\u0131 kuruntular\u0131m, tutkular\u0131m. <\/p>\n
Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kendime gelemedim <\/p>\n
Sinsi bir nefes <\/p>\n
F\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yordu kula\u011f\u0131ma: <\/p>\n
"Daha gen\u00e7sin, hen\u00fcz erken…" <\/p>\n
Dedi; i\u015fime geldi inan\u0131verdim. <\/p>\n
G\u00f6n\u00fcl ekran\u0131ndaki paslar birikti, silemedim <\/p>\n
Eyvah, bilemedim dostlar, <\/p>\n
Bilemedim… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":42,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[75],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1088","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ekim-2007"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1088","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/42"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1088"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1088\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1088"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1088"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1088"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}