\u00a0 <\/p>\n
Ben kendimi tan\u0131yorum, <\/p>\n
Acizli\u011fimi de, asili\u011fi mi de biliyorum. <\/p>\n
Rabbim, Efendim, <\/p>\n
Senden utan\u0131yorum! <\/p>\n
Ne olur \u00e7\u0131karma i\u00e7imden mehabetini <\/p>\n
Art\u0131r ruhumda mehafetini… <\/p>\n
Sahipsiz ve nasipsiz b\u0131rakma, <\/p>\n
G\u00f6nder, yine g\u00f6nder merhametini… <\/p>\n
Cahilim, gafilim, <\/p>\n
Tevbemi tutam\u0131yorum… <\/p>\n
Utan\u0131yorum Allah\u0131m, Utan\u0131yorum! <\/p>\n
Hep mahcubum Sana kar\u015f\u0131 <\/span><\/span>Hep mahzununum,<\/span><\/span>Sana mahkumum, mecburum Allah\u0131m!..<\/span><\/span>Aff\u0131na ve iltifat\u0131na yakla\u015fmak i\u00e7in;<\/span><\/span>D\u00f6n\u00fcp dola\u015f\u0131p,<\/span><\/span>Yalvara yakara,<\/span><\/span>Yine kap\u0131na geliyorum…<\/span><\/span>Bir yudum suya,<\/span><\/span>Bir nefes solu\u011fa bile <\/span><\/span>Kendimi lay\u0131k g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorum…<\/span><\/span>Lokmalar bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmleniyor, yutam\u0131yorum…<\/span><\/span>Elim bo\u015f, y\u00fcz\u00fcm kara,<\/span><\/span>Utan\u0131yorum Allah\u0131m, utan\u0131yorum!<\/span><\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Gizli g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m ortaya d\u00f6k\u00fclseydi,<\/span><\/span>Ve Settar isminle \u00f6rtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn<\/span><\/span>Kirli s\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131n fermuar\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fclseydi…<\/span><\/span>En yak\u0131n\u0131m dahil,<\/span><\/span>Kimse y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakmayacak,<\/span><\/span>Yan\u0131ma sokulmayacakt\u0131… <\/span><\/span>Ama Sen,<\/span><\/span>B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 setredip saklad\u0131n…<\/span><\/span>\u00dcstelik say\u0131s\u0131z nimetler ve faziletler ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131n…<\/span><\/span>Ha\u015fa, ba\u015fka kim,<\/span><\/span>B\u00f6ylesine Kerim,<\/span><\/span>Bu denli Rahim davran\u0131rd\u0131?<\/span><\/span>Ettiklerime kalsayd\u0131<\/span><\/span>\u015eimdi kulun, kim bilir<\/span><\/span>Hangi belalar ve r\u00fcsvayl\u0131klar i\u00e7inde k\u0131vran\u0131rd\u0131!..<\/span><\/span>Ama hala,<\/span><\/span>Rahman s\u0131fat\u0131nla,<\/span><\/span>Ra\u011fbet g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum, kutlan\u0131yorum…<\/span><\/span>Bunca ihsan\u0131ndan ve ikram\u0131ndan, <\/span><\/span>Utan\u0131yorum Allah\u0131m, utan\u0131yorum!<\/span><\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span>B\u00fct\u00fcn vebalime,<\/span><\/span>Ve peri\u015fan halime ra\u011fmen…<\/span><\/span>Edepsizce itirazlar\u0131ma,<\/span><\/span>Nank\u00f6rl\u00fcklerime<\/span><\/span>Ve iyiliklerini inkar\u0131ma ra\u011fmen…<\/span><\/span>Yine de a\u015fk\u0131ms\u0131n, sevdams\u0131n,<\/span><\/span>Dinim, duam, davams\u0131n…<\/span><\/span>Hep umudum,<\/span><\/span>Hak mabudum,<\/span><\/span>Ve tek maksudumsun!..<\/span><\/span>Ey kemaline hayran<\/span><\/span>Cemaline kurban oldu\u011fum!<\/span><\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u0130badetlerim noksan,<\/span><\/span>Hizmetlerim yavan,<\/span><\/span>Sohbetlerim riya,<\/span><\/span>G\u00f6n\u00fcl beytullah\u0131m puthaneye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f,<\/span><\/span>Ars\u0131z arzular\u0131m Tanr\u0131ya..!<\/span><\/span>Bu putlar\u0131 i\u00e7imden atam\u0131yorum,<\/span><\/span>Utan\u0131yorum Senden Allah\u0131m, <\/span><\/span>Utan\u0131yorum! <\/span><\/span> <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00a0 <\/p>\n Ben kendimi tan\u0131yorum, <\/p>\n Acizli\u011fimi de, asili\u011fi mi de biliyorum. <\/p>\n Rabbim, Efendim, <\/p>\n Senden utan\u0131yorum! <\/p>\n Ne olur \u00e7\u0131karma i\u00e7imden mehabetini <\/p>\n Art\u0131r ruhumda mehafetini… <\/p>\n Sahipsiz ve nasipsiz b\u0131rakma, <\/p>\n G\u00f6nder, yine g\u00f6nder merhametini… <\/p>\n Cahilim, gafilim, <\/p>\n Tevbemi tutam\u0131yorum… <\/p>\n Utan\u0131yorum Allah\u0131m, Utan\u0131yorum! <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":26,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[44],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-383","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-eylul-2005"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/383","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/26"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=383"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/383\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=383"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=383"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=383"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}