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Bazen \u00fcrk\u00fcyorum aynalardan<\/strong> <\/p>\n Bakam\u0131<\/strong>yorum kendi y\u00fcz\u00fcme<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ettiklerimden utan\u0131<\/strong>yorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n G\u00fcnahlar\u0131<\/strong>m, isyanlar\u0131m, itirazlar\u0131m<\/strong> <\/p>\n Nank\u00f6rl\u00fcklerim, d\u00f6nekliklerim geliyor g\u00f6z\u00fcme<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u0130\u00e7imdeki y\u0131lan\u0131 tan\u0131yorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/p>\n Pi<\/strong>\u015fman oluyorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n Peri<\/strong>\u015fan oluyorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n Uykular\u0131<\/strong>m ka\u00e7\u0131yor, yatam\u0131yorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ama bir zaman sonra <\/strong> <\/p>\n Gaflet yine a\u011f\u0131<\/strong>r bas\u0131yor<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u015eehvet yine \u015fahlan\u0131yor<\/strong> <\/p>\n Bo\u011f<\/strong>uluyorum…<\/strong> <\/p>\n Allah'\u0131<\/strong>m, tevbemi tutam\u0131yorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u015feytan\u0131 atam\u0131yorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n <\/p>\n H\u00fcrmet ediyorlar,<\/strong> <\/p>\n Kahroluyorum…<\/strong> <\/p>\n Dua istiyorlar, <\/strong> <\/p>\n Mahvoluyorum…<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u00c7i\u011f<\/strong>liklerimi, \u00e7irkinliklerimi<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u00c7irkef hallerimi, \u00e7ifte etiketlerimi hat\u0131<\/strong>rlay\u0131p<\/strong> <\/p>\n Kavruluyorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n Riyakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/strong>mdan, sahtekarl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan utan\u0131yorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ne denli yaral\u0131<\/strong>y\u0131m<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ne denli karal\u0131<\/strong>y\u0131m<\/strong> <\/p>\n Derdimi anlatam\u0131<\/strong>yorum!…<\/strong> <\/p>\n <\/p>\n L\u00fctfu ilahi <\/strong> <\/p>\n Baz\u0131<\/strong> meziyetlerimden<\/strong> <\/p>\n Baz\u0131<\/strong> marifetlerinden dolay\u0131<\/strong> <\/p>\n Nefsim <\/strong>\u015f<\/strong>\u0131<\/strong>mar\u0131nca…<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ve, "ben neymi<\/strong>\u015fim" havalar<\/strong>\u0131<\/strong>na kap\u0131l\u0131nca<\/strong> <\/p>\n Hemen ge\u00e7mi<\/strong>\u015fteki gizli belgeleri<\/strong> <\/p>\n Kiramen katibin kameras\u0131<\/strong>yla kaydedilmi\u015f<\/strong> <\/p>\n Vicdan sitesindeki<\/strong> <\/p>\n G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri g\u00f6steriyorum..<\/strong> <\/p>\n Havas\u0131<\/strong> s\u00f6n\u00fcyor,<\/strong> <\/p>\n Kafas\u0131<\/strong> e\u011filiyor<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ruhum feryat ediyor bu eziyetlerden<\/strong> <\/p>\n Utan\u0131<\/strong>yorum, unutam\u0131yorum..<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ama \u00e7aresiz<\/strong> <\/p>\n Yine kendimden Rabbime<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u015eeytan\u0131n \u015ferrinden<\/strong> <\/p>\n O'nun rahmet ve <\/strong>\u015fefkatine<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u0130tlica ediyorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n Yine tevbeye sar\u0131<\/strong>l\u0131yorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n Cehde koyuluyorum, umutlan\u0131<\/strong>yorum<\/strong> <\/p>\n "Sen'den yine sana s\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/strong>n\u0131yorum"<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ferahlan\u0131<\/strong>yorum, rahatl\u0131yorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00a0 <\/p>\n Bazen \u00fcrk\u00fcyorum aynalardan<\/strong> <\/p>\n Bakam\u0131<\/strong>yorum kendi y\u00fcz\u00fcme<\/strong> <\/p>\n Ettiklerimden utan\u0131<\/strong>yorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n G\u00fcnahlar\u0131<\/strong>m, isyanlar\u0131m, itirazlar\u0131m<\/strong> <\/p>\n Nank\u00f6rl\u00fcklerim, d\u00f6nekliklerim geliyor g\u00f6z\u00fcme<\/strong> <\/p>\n \u0130\u00e7imdeki y\u0131lan\u0131 tan\u0131yorum!..<\/strong> <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":98,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-939","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mayis-2007"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/939","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/98"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=939"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/939\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=939"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=939"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.millicozum.com\/mc\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=939"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}